My Kailash Journey


My Kailash Journey : My Death and Rebirth


“I bow down to Supreme Shiva, the supreme lord, who is the embodiment of Nirvana (ultimate liberation), all-pervading, and the essence of the knowledge of Brahma (the ultimate reality). He is self-existent, beyond attributes, devoid of distinctions and desires, and the consciousness that encompasses the entire universe. I worship and adore the one who resides in the infinite space of consciousness.”

In the summer of 2019, I embarked on a pilgrimage to Kailash Mansarovar, a sacred place nestled in the majestic Himalayas. Little did I know that this spiritual sojourn would be the catalyst for a profound awakening and transformation within me. The experiences I encountered during my 18 days of pilgrimage, especially three days spent at the divine Kailash were nothing short of extraordinary, leaving an indelible mark on my soul. It is said that Kailash chooses those who are ready to embark on a spiritual quest. I felt an inexplicable yearning to visit this divine abode long before I set foot on its sacred soil. The aura of Kailash, its ethereal beauty, and the stories of spiritual encounters intrigued me deeply. I felt drawn to its mystical presence, sensing that something profound awaited me there.

At the tender age of five or six, a spark of curiosity ignited within me, prompting me to question my grandmother about the abode of GOD. Her response resonated deeply within my young heart, as she spoke of the sacred Kailash Mountain as the dwelling place of the divine. From that transformative moment onwards, my quest for GOD and my yearning for Kailash began to take root.

For decades, from the age of five until I finally reached Kailash at the age of forty, my every waking day was consumed by an unwavering desire to be in the presence of Kailash. It was as if this sacred mountain held an inexplicable magnetism, pulling at the very essence of my soul. The journey to Kailash became synonymous with the journey of my soul itself, a profound pilgrimage of the spirit.

With an indomitable longing and a heart aflame with devotion, I pursued my soul’s destined path towards Kailash. It was a calling that surpassed all worldly attachments and transcended the limitations of time and space. Each day, my yearning grew stronger, drawing me closer to the sacred mountain that held the key to unlocking the deepest recesses of my being.

The Awakening: Upon reaching Kailash, a profound sense of serenity enveloped me. The air seemed charged with spiritual energy, and I could sense the ancient wisdom that permeated the surroundings. As I gazed upon the awe-inspiring peak, I felt a deep connection to something greater than myself. It was in that moment that the process of my awakening commenced. As I set foot in Kailash, surrounded by majestic mountains and the serene Mansarovar Lake, I could sense a palpable energy enveloping me. It was as if the very air I breathed was charged with divinity. While I cannot compare my experience to that of other enlightened beings, I can attest to the profound impact it had on my being.

Seek GOD not his Gifts. Embrace the divine presence within, and the blessings of abundance, love, and fulfilment will naturally flow into your life.

Mount Kailash stands as a testimony to the inexplicable wonders of the natural world, leaving scientists and spiritual seekers in awe of its mysteries. Its spiritual significance, intertwined with scientific fascination, beckons us to delve deeper into the profound secrets hidden within its sacred slopes.

While science attempts to unravel the mechanisms behind the inexplicable powers associated with Mount Kailash, the spiritual seekers are drawn towards its ethereal aura, seeking profound experiences and spiritual awakening. It serves as a bridge between the tangible realm of scientific exploration and the intangible realm of spiritual awakening.

The allure of Mount Kailash transcends the boundaries of belief systems, cultural backgrounds, and scientific disciplines. It stands as a testament to the inherent connection between the human spirit and the vast mysteries of the universe. This mystical mountain serves as a reminder that there are realms beyond our understanding, waiting to be explored and comprehended.

As we continue to be in awe of Mount Kailash’s mystical allure, it inspires us to embrace a sense of wonder and curiosity, fostering a harmonious relationship between science and spirituality. Perhaps, in the convergence of these two realms, lies the key to unravelling the mysteries that Mount Kailash holds, leading us towards a deeper understanding of ourselves and the cosmos.

It is widely believed that those who undertake the pilgrimage to Kailash return as different individuals. I am a living testament to this belief. During my three days in Kailash, a remarkable transformation began to unfold within me. Not only did my life change, but I myself underwent a profound metamorphosis. The person I was before stepping foot in Kailash ceased to exist, and a new version of myself was born. This transformation was not limited to a physical change; it was a spiritual death and rebirth, a shedding of old beliefs and attachments that had confined me. The person I was before embarking on this sacred journey ceased to exist, and a new version of myself emerged, reborn in the spiritual depths of Kailash.

This transformation was not a mere superficial change; it was a death and rebirth of the soul. It transcended the physical realm and touched the very essence of my being. As I surrendered myself to the divine energies that permeated every inch of Kailash, I felt an inner shift, a shedding of old beliefs, attachments, and limitations that had held me back. It was a liberation of the spirit, an unburdening of the soul.

In the sacred land of Kailash, I had the privilege of experiencing the divine energies of Shiv and Shakti. Their limitless power and presence were palpable, as I witnessed the nirakar Shiv, the formless representation of the divine, in all its glory.

In the presence of Shiv and Shakti, the divine cosmic energies that govern the universe, I experienced a profound connection. Their limitless power and boundless love washed over me, engulfing me in a state of bliss and oneness. The nirakar Shiv, the formless representation of the divine, revealed itself to me in its awe-inspiring grandeur. I could feel its presence resonating within the very core of my being.

Words alone cannot capture the depth and magnitude of the experiences I had in Kailash. It was as if the veils of illusion were lifted, allowing me to perceive the true nature of reality. The world around me seemed to dissolve, revealing a deeper, more profound truth. I realized that the external trappings of life, the material possessions and pursuits, held no lasting significance in comparison to the eternal essence of the soul.

During those transformative days in Kailash, I underwent an inner alchemy. I died to my old self, shedding layers of conditioning and ego-driven desires. In that death, a new me was born—a version untethered by worldly attachments and limitations, a version connected to the divine source.

Now, as I reflect upon my life’s extraordinary journey, I recognize that Kailash was more than a physical destination—it was the embodiment of my soul’s purpose. It guided me, shaped me, and propelled me forward on a transformative path of self-realization. Kailash became the sacred pilgrimage that would forever reside within the depths of my heart, eternally intertwined with my spiritual awakening.

Since returning from Kailash, my life has taken on a new meaning and purpose. The experiences and insights gained during my pilgrimage continue to guide and inspire me on my spiritual path. The journey to Kailash remains etched in my memory as a sacred chapter in my existence, a testament to the power of divine intervention and the limitless potential of the human spirit.

I am immensely grateful for the opportunity to have experienced Kailash Mansarovar and to have been touched by the energies of Shiv and Shakti. The journey to Kailash is not merely a physical one; it is a pilgrimage of the soul, a quest for self-realization and enlightenment. I encourage all seekers to embark on this sacred odyssey, to surrender to the transformative powers that await them in the heart of Kailash.

The journey to Kailash was not merely a physical endeavour; it was a spiritual odyssey that reshaped the very fabric of my being. I am eternally grateful for the divine grace that led me to this sacred place and forever changed the course of my life. May the transformative energies of Kailash continue to guide me on the path of self-realization and divine union, as I walk with renewed purpose and an unwavering devotion to Supreme Shiva.

During my transformative journey at Kailash, I experienced a profound shift in consciousness that altered my perspective on identity, unity, and spirituality. Prior to arriving at Kailash, I strongly identified as an Indian and a devout Hindu, firmly rooted in my cultural and religious background. However, as my consciousness began to rise and expand in that sacred place, a profound realization unfolded within me.

As I immersed myself in the spiritual energy of Kailash, I started to perceive myself beyond the confines of national or cultural identities. The boundaries of nationality, such as being Indian, American, Japanese, or Chinese, became insignificant as my consciousness expanded. I transcended the limitations of societal labels and recognized a deeper truth: at our core, we are all interconnected human beings. The realization dawned upon me that the source from which we all originate is the same, and that source is Shiva, the divine essence that permeates everything.

With this expanded consciousness, the barriers of differentiation began to dissolve. I no longer saw divisions between people based on their nationalities, religions, or backgrounds. The superficial distinctions that once seemed so significant lost their power as I recognized the inherent oneness of all beings. It became clear that our true essence, our divine connection, transcends the external trappings of identity.

As my consciousness soared to greater heights, I felt a profound sense of unity with all of humanity. The realization of oneness became a living truth within me. I understood that beneath the surface-level differences, we are all expressions of the same universal consciousness. We are interconnected threads woven into the fabric of existence, sharing a common source and destiny.

This profound shift in perception brought about a deep sense of compassion, empathy, and acceptance. I recognized that the diversity of religions, nations, and cultures is merely a beautiful tapestry reflecting the various expressions of the divine. Each individual, regardless of their external affiliations, carries within them the spark of the universal consciousness.

In this state of expanded awareness, I embraced the unity of all existence. I no longer viewed people through the lens of division, but rather through a lens of interconnectedness. Love, respect, and understanding flowed naturally, transcending the boundaries that had once divided us.

My journey at Kailash allowed me to realize that the ultimate truth lies in recognizing the oneness that unites us all. It awakened me to the profound depths of our shared humanity, reminding me that we are all spiritual beings having a human experience. The experience at Kailash transformed my perception, enabling me to approach life with a greater sense of unity, compassion, and reverence for the interconnected web of existence.

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